Looking Back

Today I looked through my entire blog’s history.

I’ve only been blogging for about two years now, but I barely remember what it was like when ‘Windie’ was not an aspect of my identity. What was it like when I didn’t care about lingerie, or didn’t know a thing about fitting? Did I legitimately hate my chest for so many years until I actively pursued an interest in lingerie? How was there a time when I didn’t know so many fantastic bloggers, retailers and readers who have enriched my life? What was I spending so much of my time doing?

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It seems like it was ages ago that I first reviewed the Cleo Meg, but that was only September of 2012. I couldn’t sworn it was much more than two and a half years ago that I strictly wore Freya for fear of branching out, and eventually tried my first Mimi Holliday, Panache and Miss Mandalay bras. I feel like my blog and I have both changed so much since then, so it’s strange to realize how recently all of these events transpired. Just a few clicks and boom, it feels like I’ve stepped back so much further than two years.

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I noticed that my blog’s tone has become less casual over time, which I think has been positive and negative. I used to write posts in the moment. I’d think of a new idea, and just sit down and hammer it out (kind of like I’m doing right now actually). Now I have a number of posts waiting in a que that are steadily worked on and revised over the course of many days or weeks. I didn’t have any grasp of who my audience was or what may have been expected of me, so I would write whatever sort of post struck me. Now there are general topics and types of posts that I tend to write, and I think I’ve been stuck in them for a while. I want to channel some of the spontaneity that my blog had when it was only three months old again, but keep the polish that comes with experience.

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I’m pleased with how my photography has improved. I am a photographer outside of my blogging life, so it’s really rather silly that I wasn’t utilizing much of that skill for a lot of my blog’s existence. I promise that the improved photography is there to stay and I’ll not be slipping back into blurry photo habits. I may even begin creating illustration for some of my posts, but that is merely a tiny idea baby at the moment.

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I cherish and appreciate history, but I didn’t expect myself to get so sentimental about my own. I’m not a person who spends much time looking back in my life, but I used to spend too much time looking forward. I live very much in the present, and find that’s the healthiest way for me to be. But I think, starting now, I’ll look back on occasion. Not to mourn what I had and I don’t now have, or to miss a time I can’t go back to. I’ll look back to understand myself better, to self improve. Old doesn’t mean worse, as I’m sure we all know, but old can easily be forgotten. I don’t want to forget. I want to remember to be the fullest person that I can.

 

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